Learning from the Best

I could not do anything but to put my feelings in writings. Hopefully, somehow I could take this out and be fine. Wish that would be easy. I'm missing her time for me. The way she text me. Missing all of her. But here I am in the situation and I must face with it. If she could make her day without me, I will try it my own. If there is a gradual vanishing of feelings then let me teach myself how to do it. Time will heal perhaps. Maybe it hurts for now. But I know, this feeling would just be a beautiful nightmare in my life. At least, I learned to love. Learned to dream. Persevere to realize one's dream. Not my loss maybe. I'm doing my best yet, it wasn't enough.

I just want to thank her for making me dream. Inspire. Thanks for being part of my life. Thanks for the pain. Thanks for everything. I will change from now on. I wouldn't be the same person you once know before. Because if I won't, I'll just keep expecting I would still have dream. Dream that would remain fantasy. And that's hard working with something you do not know where it goes. I just want you to know the way it feels to cry the way that I cry when you broke my world, my dreams I put on. I wish one day, you would realize how great I am because of you. I could love a thousand times. But never will you be loved by someone whose heart is as simple as mine. Hope you would realize before it's too late. Don't risk for things. It's not good to regret at the future when you can supposed to save the feeling. I'm learning from the best. I am learning from you.

Nothing is so good it lasts eternally, as that song goes. Perfect situation must go wrong which I never realize that it would be possible in real world. Looking back I could have played it differently. Here I am. Looking far away how long would it take for me to overcome this feeling.

No one in your life is with you constantly. No one is completely on your side. I'm trying to keep you. Been trying to save us. You love me as you told me. But you are making a gap that we need to build bridges to reach out. But despite. Now this is me. Staying with you. And will no longer ask for anything. Just the way you want me to.

If this would be the feeling you once felt, not far, I could be feeling the way your feeling right now. Just can't completely understand why you walked away from me.